I did work on the game today, I really did. But I found it difficult to focus and when I went upstairs for a bathroom break I found Nils in the hallway, the best part is that for each step I took in the stairs the flatter he got as if it would actually make him less visible... I took up my phone and snapped a picture of him and just had to waste even more of my time on actually drawing this. I have so many more pictures for that second frame as well but chances are that I laugh much harder at this than everybody else so I should probably spare it from you... Maybe. I may draw more pictures of my cat. I'm sorry. Maybe.


Yeah. I know that he may be hard to spot because of his amazing hiding skills but he's actually in that picture!

I'll get back to game making now. Beginning is always the worst part, I always begin with the background category too because I'm not too fond of drawing backgrounds. So once that's over with game making generally keeps a steady pace!

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Yeah... I'm not very brave. x'D I'm just trying to deal with me being nervous in a humourus way, it's the most effective way for me! That's why every time I'm at the emergency room and have someone with me you can hear the absolute worst jokes echoing from my room... 

So at this time in exactly two weeks I'll be at the hospital with wires in my thigh up to the heart. It's really nothing to be worried about, it's a very safe procedure. But I don't deal with blood and stuff like that very well, I also have this thing where I get uncomfortable when I hear my own heart beating (I know, that's pretty bad x'D), I got nauseous when I did the ultrasound of my heart and could both hear the beats of my heart and see the valves move on that screen... x'D

But yeah. Basically I have issues with tachycardia. My issues aren't dangerous, but they are very unpleasant. My heart can at any random given time and place starts to beat in over 200 beats per minute and the last couple of years it hasn't gone away on it's own which leads to me having to go to the emergency to get heart medicines to make it stop (or well, calm down, obviously stopping the heart would be much much worse x'D). It's not dangerous at all in my age but it has gotten very bothersome. The last time it happened I had relatives over that I hadn't met in many years and of course that first day ended with me having to get to the emergency room by ambulance... I mean, it was pretty cool because it was my first time riding an ambulance with blue lights and everything. But yeah. It's bothersome. It rarely happens when I have time for it. xD

So they suspect that I may have an extra... I'm not sure what's the exact term for it in english (I've just heard all of these complicated terms in swedish), but it's kind of an extra connection to the heart which sends signals to the heart to start beating like crazy even though it's not needed. So that's what they will figure out in two weeks. If they find that extra connection then they will be able to burn it right away and the success rate is over 90%. So if they do find it there's a high chance that I'll be rid of the problem for good!  

But first I have to endure the procedure, trying to not think about the fact that they are literally poking my heart with the cables... It's not really the pain I'm worried about, the most painful part will probably be that numbing shot in my thigh. But just knowing that they are poking around in my chest and has put everything in that large vein which will probably bleed a lot afterwards (I'm not allowed to move for a couple of hours afterwards) is enough to make my hands sweat already. I can't exactly run away if I panic... But I'm sure things will go a lot better than I'm worried about! And at least they will give me sedatives! Not enough to put me to sleep but probably enough to feel just as good as I do when I eat chocolate.

But yeah. Felt good to get some nervousness out, only two weeks left of feeling worried! I'll try to put my mind into work instead, there's no use worrying about it. But please keep your fingers crossed that they will find that extra connection to my heart so I'll be done with 8 years of putting up with this issue! :')

Oh and this won't affect my work flow that much. I'll be gone for 1-2 days. Afterwards my thigh will probably be very sore and I'm expected to be in full mobility after a week, but I assume that sitting in the chair and drawing will feel perfectly fine! So you can count on me being unable to answer messages for two days or so but then I'm probably back like normally!

These two from Yuri Kuma Arashi... ;_; I'm just going to go ahead and warn for possible spoilers in this description (and I would have censored the entire picture as a spoiler if I had the option to, a mature content censor didn't feel quite right)! D:
This scene in the last episode... I know, Ginko and Kureha BUT WHAT ABOUT THESE?! The moment I saw that "defective" note my eyes turned into waterfalls... I just really feel for these two! 
I really really hope to see more fan art of these. I haven't come across any yet (it's possible that I just haven't found it yet) but since it's such a new anime I figured fan art will take a while. At least of these ones! I'll be waiting, maybe one day in one of these yuri groups. One day.

UPDATE: I FOUND IT! I found Uchiko and Konomi fan art. Tumblr delivered. I feel so much happier now. I really do.

But yeah, if you haven't seen Yuri Kuma Arashi I can highly recommend it. Especially if you enjoyed Revolutionary Girl Utena and/or Mawaru Penguindrum.

Also I really enjoy drawing in this style. I'm happy I decided to continue with it!

And one last time, these characters (Uchiko Ai, the black haired one, and Konomi Yurikawa, the brownhaired one) are from the anime Yuri Kuma Arashi and belong to Kunihiko Ikuhara.

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